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Thy
righteousness is like the great mountains; thy judgments are a great deep:
O Lord, thou preservest man and beast. Psalm 36 : 6 From experience and first hand knowledge, I absolutely know, 100% that the Lord, our Creator, doesn’t change, as He states so infallibly in His word in Malachi 3 : 6. If He were to say one thing and do another, then how could I, or anyone else for that matter trust Him, let alone place our very lives and souls into His hands? Now the Lord and I talk on a daily basis. I know it began just after I was electrocuted some 35 years ago, and probably even before that, but I can’t say for certain since the first eight years of memories were wiped clean by the jolt. There are times I don’t think He listens. Probably too busy with other matters, I guess to pay any attention to me. I mean, I’m not really that important... For several months of 2002 I have been feeling particularly down; antsy at wanting to do something; another adventure perhaps. Anything to feel creative once again instead of feeling as though I were wadding through quicksand. For awhile, I cried out daily to help me get out of this mire. Why am I here anyway, I would shout. I’ve lived enough life, I’m ready to leave. This is when the close friends hide the guns. Oh, I may scream I want to kill myself, but I’m not foolish enough to do such a sinful thing. I went through my baptism of fire years ago, hanging onto the edge of the cliff, and somehow passed the test. I’d stick around just to be a thorn in Satan’s side. I really do get pleasure in tormenting him. During the past year, I began to notice my little girl, Jia Tu, become slower in her movements. She sleeps more than usual, curling up in the warmth of the blanket, and she doesn’t quite hear me when I first enter our home. During her annual physical, her doctor noticed the cataract, saying upon further examination that she was now blind in one eye, and could quite possibly become totally blind within the next year or so. She’s nearly 12 years old, I thought. The oldest dog I’ve ever had. Jia Tu and I have been together since she was four months old. How did the time fly by so? Yet Jia Tu continues to be a happy puppy; always getting into mischief. Wanting a biscuit every chance she can beg me out of one, as she jumps in my lap, wags her tail and slobbers me with kisses until I give in. There are times I admit, especially around the holidays, that I feel a pang of loneliness that I’m thankful to the God of all creation that he has sent this little Lhasa Apso to me for comfort and joy. During 2002, her bad eye became worse to the point of disgusting. No one who came to the house could really look at Jia Tu squarely. Even I have to admit ashamedly, that I could barely hold her and hug her in my arms without turning away. I suppose an operation could be done. I never discussed this with the doctor, but now thoughts were turning that way. And yet there were no complaints from Jia. All she cared about was being fed and having quality lap time with me. She was more interested in loving her master and being loved by him. My little girl. My little love puppy... Just after Thanksgiving as the celebration of Christ’s birth approached, a thought occurred to me as well as familiar Scripture verses about how Jesus not only opened the eyes of the blind, He even opened the eyes of one who was blind since birth. Many of these people had faith. Some had less than that and didn’t know what was happening to them until after the miracle had taken place. Thus, I began to pray to my God of miracles who never changed that probably wasn’t listening anyway. A prayer not for me, but for someone I loved deeply, that I knew could never know Him; never know the awesome power of His love for His creatures. It was a simple prayer. A small request. Lord, I know You are a God of miracles. I know You cannot change. I know You are known as the Great Physician among the hundreds of names that are bestowed upon You. At this special time of year, if it be Your Will, please give Jia Tu back her sight. I know You love and bless the four legged creatures just as much as You do the two legged ones. I love her Lord, and whatever years we have left together, please don’t let them be in darkness. Amen. I let it go at that, and put my faith, hope and trust in Him Who has yet to let me down. Thy Will be done, so be it, and move onward and upward... I cannot pinpoint the exact day nor hour, but sometime after Christmas, I awoke to find Jia Tu watching me with a waiting look for her morning breakfast biscuit. I’m a slow riser and she’s patient with me. As we stared at one another it was only then that I noticed she was looking at me with two clear eyes!!! Praise God! Hallelujah! was my first reaction. Was I dreaming? Was I actually seeing a miracle before me? I picked her up in my arms and really, truly looked at her. Eye to eye. They were clear. Clear! So many thoughts ran through my mind... I was upbeat! The Lord hasn’t turned aside from me. He really is still with me, near me, listening to me. He blessed a creature that can never know Him as we can know Him. Jia Tu can never thank Him. She can’t praise Him. She probably doesn’t even know what has happened to her... I kept this news to myself for a few weeks. I wanted to make sure her eye was really cleared. That the cataract was gone for life. It stayed cleared and she looks like her old self. Only then did I began to mention it to those closest to me. Jean first. She couldn’t believe it. Knew what the eye looked like before and was repulsed by it. She came over to the house right away, and was shocked to find Jia Tu back to normal. Began telling friends and neighbors of the miracle. Same too with the pastor of my church who drops by the house regularly. He’s known Jia for at least the last 10 years. Just shakes his head and says it’s a miracle. Couldn’t stand to look at that ugly eye and is in awe of what the Lord has done and how He cares for all. In the coming months, Jia Tu’s physical will be arriving, and I’m sure her doctor will have to make a notation in her charts next to the statement that total blindness may occur. I have been renewed by a miracle. Life will still get me down as it does to us all, but I know the doldrums won’t last for long because the Lord is always present; always faithful to His children. Jia Tu still continues to be herself, oblivious to what has happened to her. I’d love to sit down and talk it over with her. Find out what’s going on in that mischievous mind of hers... Lord, You have been known to allow the animals to talk from time to time... Until next month, Kevin |
LOVE
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